Selfish, indeed...

You know what is worse then a thirteen month old with croup. A mom that has a sinus infection/cold, has a huge amount of pressure built up in her already tight for room head, cannot breathe out of her nose, has toxic acid streaming down her throat, a headache that feels like my head is too heavy for my neck(again we are talking big here!)...oh and did I mention, feels like shit. It wouldn't be so bad if we got sick at different times.
She has never been one to get up in the middle of the night and not fall back to sleep(well at least since about 5 months). So this getting up in the middle of the night and wanting to stay up. For the birds. If I don't feel good, I sure as hell don't want to try to convince a whiney, snotty, coughing like a seal little girl to go back to sleep. Don't get me wrong, I want more then anything for her to feel better and if I could take her sickness away and have mine worse, I would. But, it makes for a very cranky mom. I guess when I require A LOT of sleep on a good day, being sick makes it worse. And having a sick child makes it worser(yes I know that is not a word, deal with it!). Clearly we are talking seriousness here;)!I have second thoughts all the time about having another baby on the sheer fact that I will have to do late night/early morning feedings again. Selfish, maybe. We all have our weaknesses, sleep happens to be mine. I can handle poop, pee, vomit, rashes, etc IF I have enough sleep. If I could change this about me I would. If I could some how take those damn power naps that everyone else seems to be able to do and feel wonderful, I would. If I take a nap, it has to be 2 hours minimum! There you have it. I am professing to the world, I suck at being sick! Seriously...

*cue comments telling me how brave I am for being a sick mom to a sick toddler*